perfect things

twizzlers and diet coke (among others..)

most of my life has been spent in the pursuit of being Better: smarter, wittier, calmer, funnier, prettier, more outgoing, less outgoing… this manifested into the feeling of being on a merry-go-round that twirls at a velocity that makes you want to retch all thoughts of self improvement (this sounds as dramatic as it feels in the moment). once you finally make it off this spinning carousel there is a distinct note of dizziness as you try to steady yourself into a life held by realistic standards of yourself.

this is surprisingly not going to be an essay about ~embracing my imperfections~ which i do find to be important, but exhausting. and i’m tired and dizzy! at this moment i want to settle into the beautiful, special, charming pockets of my world that i deem to be perfect.

my perfect things:

• texts from friends with disposable photos

• falling asleep with a book in your hand 

• exclamation marks

• the prada ss23 show 

• reaching into a pocket and finding a souvenir from a really great night out (ie karaoke ticket, match book, number from a stranger etc.) 

• the cardamom bun at la cabra 

• bodega flowers 

• my apartment when it’s full of candles 

• singing “before he cheats” at karaoke

• seeing my parents drink their coffee on the porch together in the morning while they read the newspaper

• twizzlers and diet coke

• any apartment party that angelina throws

• the mosaic tile of hats at the 23rd street subway stop 

• sourdough bread and salted butter 

• red socks

• my grandmother’s old beat up chanel bag 

• save me the plums by ruth reichl 

• having a crush

• flakey maldon salt

• the high line in the morning 

• eating whipped cream from the can

• strangers holding hands

• red nail polish

• sydney when she’s wearing earmuffs

• sydney when she’s not wearing ear muffs

• laughing at work

• the “they shoot single people, don’t they?” episode of sex and the city

• a cartier tank watch (unfortunately)

• bar/party/club makeouts

  • controversial but i have a good argument/theory for this

• running into a friend on the street and having a stop-and-chat

• an outdoor shower

• pants that aren’t too short

• giving compliments to strangers

• getting compliments from strangers

• when my peppermint tea is at the optimal temperature by the time i get into bed

• the inexplicable fleeting wave of interconnectedness of new york- somehow in a city so large you are exactly where you are meant to be and with the people you are meant to be with at that very moment

• finishing a book in one day at the beach

• the sound of heels clicking on a side walk

• pina coladas

• watching a movie while knitting

being an imperfect person gets easier once you build a world around you filled with so much perfection

i would LOVE to hear what your perfect things are !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!